Snappy title huh?
Its been awhile since I doddled on this page. Always on the list of to do`s but never quite making it ther. Life has been moving remarkably fast and I have a had a hard time making writing important. Another loose end to trip up on another passion to dream of in fleeting moments. Blame it on my Gemini. Or simply that I have learned to live fast and in the moment. I am not sure why but alas, here I am. Humbled. By what I call “gods way of telling me to slow down”
Last Friday. Me and three friends embarked on a joyous adventure, bouncing on a trampoline. Playing crack the egg, bum drop, and other such games. My 230 pd friend came down on the outside of my leg. Tearing my medial tendon and ligaments (possibly). So alas my salt spring vacation was spent, having a great time hobbling around on crutches and learning really quick to ask my friends for help.
So now, its weds. I have to keep on asking for help, because my knee hasn’t gotten better. Less stiff but more pain. I am still here at 10:30 laying in my bath robe. I actually decided to not move around so much today. The last two days have been me getting driven by some good friends around to appointments, groceries, and my counselling sessions. I am so grateful that friends I see on a regular basis have offered support, friends I see less often, and friends I havent seen in a looooong time (via Facebook, godbless…haha)
I have been hobbling around like an old grandpa my roommate jokes about how this is the harbinger of my old age. “where’s my cane I hobble around the house asking?”
So its a stretch for me. Slowing down. Asking for help. Not feeling guilty for either of these. Taking my time. Walking slowly and trying to be productive at resting. I sit here, lay here with all the time in the world just passing by wondering why the fuck I dont do this more often. When did reading a book become so hard to fit in, or listening to a radio show, or cuddling for an hour nap with my dog? It’s these things that I miss when I am being dragged around by my to do list, or admittedly watching Dexter season four………….
I am so grateful to have the time right now to connect with my friends, to practicing asking for what I need, to slow down and smell the roses, to think a little more deeply about what I need to bring into my life.
So I got a call to hash out some details for hanging out with a fella next week. She asked about my leg. Then said hey I got this machine that has electrodes that I can put on you and it is used for injuries. Can I bring it over? Hell yeah!!
This is what I am talking about. Good friends that go out-of-the-way for one another, and don’t hesitate to ask for what they need and extend a helping hand. You in my mind are the best medicine a fellah like me could have. So please keep on keeping on. I will do my best to show up for you.
In gratitude and electrocution,
Matty
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